52Weeks #1 – Just a Little Late

Last week I was supposed to post about where I see myself going from here, where will I be in the future. I have to admit, I can’t really see too far ahead anymore. It’s not that I don’t want to, or that I don’t have dreams and wishes for the future… I just don’t want to get those old hopes up too high and see them fall, smashing my heart to pieces again.

So, for now I’m seeing only as far as the end of this year.

It’s got to be better than last year, even though I know things are going to get worse financially and there’s going to be a lot of hard work ahead, getting my own writing back on track as well as putting out the Belfire line. I know there’s the possibility of a new home, but I also had that possibility last year, so I’m not holding out for it. I know in one way I’m looking forward to seeing Draco graduate, but in another… it means in September, both she and Artemis will likely be off to school somewhere.

My children are grown ups this year… Artemis will be 19, and Draco will be 18 in October. It’s been 20 years since I lost the twins. Time has gone by a great deal faster than I’d ever expected it to, and I’m certainly not where I thought I’d be back then. Looking forward that far? Boggles the mind. Seriously.

Let me get through to December without completely crashing, and I’ll say cool. <|;-p